*flails and squirms a lil*
probably not much cause for it, but ah well...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY OIKKO~
The big 2-0, lol. still dunno if he's going to Houston with me though:\
good and bad:
good:
Kristy is gonna let me have my sundays again. I get to sleep as late as I want, but at midnight on sunday, I have to give her my keyboard and mouse, so she'll know I'm not staying up all night playing on the computer. I'm okay with that, sooo~
bad:
the other night, Brian was talking to me, and he MEANT to say "Kristy told me you...", but he said MY name instead. Kristy was right behind him. Yeah, he got smacked.
then tonight, Koda started to call her mommy my name. she's...not happy:\ obviously.
last night, we were looking at pics from when they brought Nathan home from the hospital, and Kristy said she just wished he knew his mommy. I told her he DOES know her...he always calls her "mama", and he looks at her when he says it. he also only gives his biggest smiles to her and to Koda. I get smiles of course, and I get laughs sometimes, but it's mama that gets the big big smiles.
she says she just needs a couple days alone with the kids, but when I pointed out that I'll be gone for a couple days in november, and maybe that will help, she says "no...he's probably going to go crazy while you're gone."
:S
I feel guilty, not just cause of her, but Nathan too...cause, I mean, I love the kids, but I don't think of them as mine...not even Nathan who I HAVE pretty much raised so far. I hate that he's apparently looking to me as a "mommy", but I look at him like a nephew or a brother...:S
*sighs* I dunno. this really kinda sucks:\
