Faded Memories

*sighs*

I dun remember if I ever posted this before, but a couple years ago, when I was trying to sleep, all of a sudden "six twenty-four" popped into my head.

first thing I thought was that it was just what time it was. looked at the clock, and it was no where near that.

the second was 6/24...the date, and for some friggen reason, it just stuck in my head that I was gonna die on that day.

I even set my phone reminder for midnight and titled the reminder: "still alive?"

I didn't think about it last year, but this year...a couple days ago, I suddenly got the urge to tell Kristy, and now I can't get it out of my head.

I think part of this is all cause of the way my left arm went wonky on me last month. it doesn't help that it went REALLY wonky on my LAST NIGHT either. damn thing started going numb, and then right below my ribcage started hurting, and then the middle of my back, right between my shoulderblades.

looked up possible causes for things like that, and oh wonderful...

(stuff in bold is what I've had so far)

CLASSIC SYMPTOMS
Squeezing chest pain or pressure
Shortness of breath
Sweating
Tightness in chest
Pain spreading to shoulders, neck or arm

MORE LIKELY IN WOMEN
Indigestion or gas-like pain
Dizziness, nausea or vomiting
Unexplained weakness, fatigue
Discomfort/pain between shoulder blades
Recurring chest discomfort
Sense of impending doom

also, in my last post about the arm numbness...I said that if WAS my heart, that I would probably already be dead by now, but then I found this:
"Women's Heart Attack Symptoms Different from Men's
Symptoms may appear up to a month before attack"


it'll be the 24th in a lil less than 2.5 hours. I'm sooo not happy.


on the other hand:
bigfish sent me another game to beta:D

AND (and this is the awesomelyawesomeofallawesomeness part):
JIN IS COMING TO TEXAS!

yeah yeah yeah, I'm a KAT-TUN fan, not a JIN-only fan, but this maybe the closest I get to seeing ANY of them live, so screw it.

1 > 0

he'll be in houston, which is a good 2-4 hour drive, but I'm hoping there'll be other people up this way that maybe we can all carpool/hotel room together if need be~

*crosses fingers some and does a lil dance*

dammit, I have to live past tomorrow or I'm gonna be pissed...course then again, I WOULD be able to see the show for free then :X

*runs*


oh, and don't try to call my cell:S I couldn't reup my plan this month cause of my sister's dickiness. that story will come later:P....I hope:S

a lot of work getting done on klove, finally, but this is kinda for my personal reference, so meh:

Jinny:
plane ticket: $388.40
paid so far: $100.00
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amount left: $288.40

plans:
next paycheck:$188.40
may check: $100.00



though I may have to switch that around since I HAVE to get a new phone this month, and I have to give Kristy money to help with the renovation of my room, AND I owe her some money for the cab ride:\ so yeah, this is gonna be a fun month.